Shakin' It Up A Bit

Tweet    Okay, so I have the blogging thing down, kinda. I post, you comment, we all feel better. There is just one problem. I'm using too much time to cruise other blogs and writing my posts. Unfortunately, unlike some of you great bloggers, (um..Elana), I am not that tech saavy nor as super human. So, this is my solution and I hope that you all will understand.

     My blogging will be held to once a week. I will aim for Monday but if it doesn't get posted until Wednesday, don't panic. If you're following on networked blogs or blogspot you will know when I have posted something new.

     I know that I take the risk of losing some of you great followers, but this is the deal. I'm still trying to figure out this whole not-being-a-mom deal. I have been a mom since I was 19 and I'm not sure I can be an adult without children. So I'm afraid I am going to have to become a little self absorbed while I work on this discovery thing. 

Here is my new posting schedule:

  First Week: Update. I'll let you know how I'm fairing in discovering my adult self.

  Second Week:  Book Reviews focusing on Middle Grade.

  Third Week:  Writing Update. Where I'm at in my process, something cool I learned, etc.

  Fourth Week: Just For Adults. This is where I will let you in on fun stuff my hubby and I have done, great restaurants, movies, site seeing... (G-rated...where are your minds.) We have always had children so this is the first time that we will actually be just "a couple".

Be In The Moment

     I've been having a thought that has weighed on my mind this last week. For years I told my children to enjoy the day you're in but I am finding it difficult to follow my own advice. 

Why?

     Mostly, guilt. One of the most useless words in our vocabulary. It paralyzes our ability to act, it keeps us frozen in our feelings of inadequacy and blocks any chance of enjoying the moment. 

      Up until a few months ago the pace in my life was breathtaking. I never had enough time to get everything done. Every waking moment was filled with anxious busyness.

      Now, I don't spend my life in the car transporting children to activities, sitting in a waiting room rarely happens, the house is quiet, it takes 2 days to fill the dishwasher and I only do laundry once a week. All six children are on their own. 


    Those of you in the daily race wonder as I did, will I ever get to the finish? Yes, you most certainly will. However, I've found that while the tasks have lessened and the noise is gone my inside engine is still idling really high. 

    Shouldn't I be cleaning, organizing, attending, doing something for someone else? I really hadn't anticipated the difficulty I would have when I wasn't needed anymore. 


    So my question today is...how do I quiet the guilt and slow the revving of my engine so the time I now have can be "my time"? *whoosh of guilt*  How do I allow myself to sleep in, sit in a chair and read a book, write in my pajamas, volunteer, play with a grandchild, breath?